What is said and done.
Hey. I've finished something, I've been building along with the projects for the buildathons.
I'll be moving on to create something better out of it.
So to the reader or this post, I want you to know that I've been meaning to tell you something, similar to what I'm writing down right now, but I didn't save the draft.
This place, this website has been a transformational experience and acted as a journal with all my thoughts, some of my work for the past months and what I've been meaning to write for people to see. On some recent news of the buildathon I've managed to end up in the first 100 submissions. It will be long before I get into another one of those probably.
So back to what I've been meaning to tell you. I've created a place were all my work, on different mediums (coding, illustration, design work, music production), socials and experience will be available for everyone to see and maybe hire me to work with them. Everything work related will move there along with case studies and articles I've written about how to do some things.
I realized I've separated myself into many many parts that I present the people I'm surrounded with, and I need to collect myself.
This is one of the reasons I've decided to do this. The other reason is that in the work I'm currently doing I've been working for 3 years+ and I still see the same selfish and hurtful patterns that make me want to go away from it, and I've decided to finally step down from this and chase what fulfills me even more.
I don't want to be an observer of my life and I want to be able to trust my gut even if it throws me back and forth. So far I've been trusting money, my mind, the logic of other people and the safety of where I am and how far I've come.
Additionally I realized that I've been very hurtful and mean with myself. I'm trying to be kind with other people always and be mindful and respectful of them even if it difficult for me in certain situations. A common psychological issue is that, most of us accept others easily, and we reject ourselves by default. I really don't want to do this anymore.
About 10 years ago I was able to have 5 different groups of friends, a whole classroom of people had only one common between them and it was that they all knew me, talked to me, spent time with me and cared about me as I cared for them. At the moment, I've got 3 very close friends, my partner, a pet and my family. I'm more than satisfied with that, but this pattern, the multiple egos that came up with different social situations is reflected on the way I treat things I work with or the things that I create, and sometimes it can be to overwhelming.
In conclusion, the blog posts about work and the projects I've done in the past will move elsewhere and this point in the vast internet universe will become something more of a thought journal, a place where I might come to share my feelings about things, a medium to write things on or to play games in my mind and narrate them for you all to read.
If you end up, somewhere along the lines of what is happening to me, please be kind to yourself. It's more okay than you think, to make mistakes and fall down as long as you don't give up on what you love. Passion is the drive, the inspiration point and what makes you more than enough to become yourself. You're a genius, I love you.