Perspective alteration
Hi there,
I hope that you're feeling great these past few days.
I think I needed to talk about these things earlier with a therapist, but putting them down makes things a bit lighter and offer different perspectives to look into a situation.
So you see for about a month or so, I've been teasing myself with the thought of doing one of my dream jobs. At the same time, I've been living hell at the job I'm doing right now. Nobody is listening to what needs to be done in order to create a better product for both the company and the users and me along with some of my colleagues, are in the middle of it all eating shit for things that we are not able to control or fix. Regarding the interview for UI/UX Design position, it turns out that I'm lacking foundational aspects of UI/UX, interface design, layout systems, hierarchy, usability, responsive design, and translating a brief into functional client-facing design work. Additionally they mentioned that they don't have enough time to train me
At the same hell was my rotational shift, this happened and I've forwarded my information, portfolio and CV to another local creative agency, where I was I called once, they told me that they wanted to see me urgently and I've told them about my schedule. They told me that they are going to call back to arrange an initial screening or something, smh... I ended up calling them again after a week, and they assured me that they have all my information and they are planning to arrange something and they haven't called because there wasn't enough time between projects to do something like this. That was 2-3 weeks ago.
I've been feeling pretty bad about the whole thing for both instances of what I tried to do,
HOW dare I try to escape a job where people I don't know talk to me like, I've killed their mother and don't have the common decency to think for themselves?
So, I'm trying to find ways to see things differently. From another perspective, to try to be at least functional. In regards to coding school, I'm still behind but I freed up some time to do more assignments at the same time. Finished a project for the Figma Config Buildathon called Deltos and I'm quietly refactoring earlier projects into code instead of AI tools and single index files, to host on my portfolio.
Please take care of yourself and know that no matter how difficult things may seem, giving up is the least you could do. I'm trying a lot, to maintain my interest in things and relationships even if I seem to have forgot about some people. I hope you don't have to try.